My son was hit by a car.
My youngest has chronic illnesses and has been sick for 4 weeks.
My daughter broke her wrist.
I have been to radiology, for images, more times in the last month than in my entire life.
(Prognosis pending)
My mom had hip replacement surgery.
My godfather is in the hospital with a questionable diagnosis for covid recovery.
......
hmmmmm....anything else 🤦🏼♀️ I don't even want to try to think of anything else right now.
That's just the big stuff that comes to mind.
I mean can you even begin to rank or comprehend or compare any of these to each other. Or add them all up to equal any one giant catastrophe. I mean this has been a summer for the books. It seems slightly comical when I can just read this as is and not attach emotion to it. Like, who is this poor cursed girl living this life? Is this a movie?
No, it is not a movie. It has been my last 3 months.
Do you remember 9 months ago when I was worried that God gave me the word JOY for my 2022 word..... I mean without fail every time I get a word like that I am tested to the fullest to show my ability to rely on God for my "word."
So I just knew getting a word like joy would be trouble. I wasn't wrong. But I was wrong about one thing. Whether or not the joy could remain throughout the trials I just knew were coming?
Have you ever had a personal evaluation done? Like at work, or school, or maybe even done one just for funnsies? I mean whoever does this stuff for fun, ha! gluttons for punishment? ha! anyway, my Bible study of all things had me do a personal evaluation.
And in this personal evaluation came the realization that not only has the joy remained but it has never wavered. No human or thing can take credit for that. That is only something I can give God the glory for!
If not for God, I wouldn't be where I am today! Sitting in joy and peace among the chaos. It's absolutely nuts to inventory my year but I also know that to some people my year may seem like a walk in the park! We just never know what people are going through am I right?!
There's nothing like a shaky year to make you take a magnifying glass to your life! I do not know what the next several months will hold as I finish up 2022. But I do know WITH OUT A DOUBT God will give me a peace that passes understanding and a joy that makes no sense!
I am praying for you all and hoping you a much better year than mine has been so far! Xoxox
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