Changes

Changes are hard. Sometimes they are unexpected. Sometimes they are planned. And sometimes you can see them coming from miles away.

THE REST OF THIS POST WAS WRITTEN AT THE END OF 2020. I HAVE BEEN WRITING BUT STRUGGLING TO FIND THE IMPORTANCE IN MY BLOG SO I HAVE NOT BEEN PUBLISHING THE WRITING.

December 2020

This season of rest and travel has been incredible for our family. I can't believe it has been over 9 months now. The bonding, the rejuvenation, the grounding, and the growth has been awesome.

There's a darker side to this season though. One that is a little more painful to talk about. Even now, looking back through everything and sifting through the details we can see the evidence of this darkness.

If you've been following this blog for any of the past 2 years you know that our oldest, our son, has autism, ADHD, OCD, and also suffers with anxiety. On the outside it looked like this trip around the US is having the same positive impact on him as the rest of us. But it wasn't. We were unaware of the battle within him.

Autism is a complicated thing. And it is not the same for everyone. There is no cookie cutter response or treatment.

As a mom I feel like I failed not seeing the signs. But as a child of God, I know I am flawed. I have never been a perfect parent and I never will be.

As a married couple we decided even though all the kids and the both of us are loving the travel it is time to settle. Of course, this doesn't look at all like we expected! Because God! We are headed to Panama City, FL. Land of the forgotten beaches and some of the nicest people we have ever met.

Zach also got a job there that we know is going to open many doors. The girls are very excited to be settled somewhere. They miss having a room and a bigger bed and more toys! Daniel, is angry with us. He is extremely outspoken about his disdain for our decisions right now. But we have to trust God and trust that He knows what is best for Daniel and our entire family.

I am excited for change. After decades of change every couple years, I know the Lord has good things ahead. I also know there is a long journey ahead for our son. I am grateful that we don't have a end game for Panama City, FL. Which means whatever comes our way we can find help and hope in our new home.

We plan to be in Panama City a little after the new year. We have a RV park waiting for us and we will go from there. Our prayer is to follow in God's footsteps the whole time. Be in prayer for us as I am in praying for you too! Xx

Panama City Beach💙